Tomorrow is my birthday, and as usual, my approaching birthday has filled me with a mixture of random thoughts. How difficult must it have been for my mum to be in labour in such intense heat of June. How another year has gone by leaving me as clueless as ever, except maybe the subjects of my cluelessness have changed. How a year older need not mean a year wiser. How I am approaching the scary monster of ’30’ at breakneck speed.
However, not all my thoughts are morose or contemplative. The new year in my life is a fresh chance to introspect and correct mistakes, to set new targets and work towards achieving them, to put an end to some things and begin some others.
A year ago, I started my humble balcony garden with 5 or 6 pots. In a year, the number has gone to 20. I was sceptical, afraid, shy but extremely optimistic about someday creating a space where we could sit and enjoy a cup of chai amid nature. I am not quite there yet, but my journey has been satisfying. I have invested a lot of myself in this space, and I have learnt a lot.
One of the most important lessons that I have learnt is that gardening, like life, is a journey. There is blood, sweat and tears involved. There is the excruciating wait for a seed to germinate, for a cutting to root and for your favourite plants to flower. There is heartbreak when things don’t go according to plan, and the unbridled joy of seeing a tiny seedling push its way out of soil, or a struggling plant survive against odds. As a new seed germinates, some old plant dies or rots or dries. You have to take it in your stride and move on.
In my garden I have succeeded, I have failed and I have learned. I have seen my carefully planted pots come tumbling down in front of my eyes and I have picked up the pieces and planted afresh. I did not know I had such patience, such childlike joy and such immense love inside me, before I started gardening. Gardening has successfully changed me from a vagabond to a nurturing caring person. I’ve learned that a garden is not just for pleasure, it’s an investment of your hard work, your time and your soul.
This year, I have decided to take inspiration from my garden and look into the future and not the past. This birthday will not only leave me a year older, but a year happier, a year calmer.
Here is a glimpse of new beginnings that my garden has promised me:
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New buds, multiple seedlings, tiny plants, all with the promise of beauty and new life to come! On this birthday, my thoughts as well as my garden are moving towards new beginnings 🙂